Birthday Ponderings

Today I turned 33. I was reminded by many people today that 33 is the age Jesus was when He completed His ministry on earth. That thought of course, left me feeling a bit behind. I'd better get to work on changing the world if I'm ever going to come close to being like Jesus before I leave this earth. I hope you don't find me disrespectful for speaking in jest as it relates to the Savior. I'd like to think He has a good sense of humor about our working so hard to be like Him. I know that is His goal after all - that we would be like Him - but nevertheless, He must find our efforts laughable.

I did a lot of thinking today about the next year. . .the next few years actually. As I sat cuddling Hope after her nap, I thought a lot about who I wanted to become. Even though I was a mom on my birthday last year, it seemed completely different now that Hope was walking and talking and acting like a little person. Her future is so much more tangible to me now that she can say "future" (among a hundred other words). I sat there thinking that I needed to get my head in the game. I use this phrase often, usually referring to work. As a mom I don't always feel like I have my head in the work game. But as a working mom, I don't always feel like I have my head in the mommy game. I know there is a balance. Some days I think I've found it. I just felt so heavily today that I need to be functioning with such precision when it comes to Hope and even more so because I am a working mom.

So as the celebration of my thirty-third year comes to a close, I begin the next year with great ambition to live life with just enough precision to be the mommy Hope needs, the wife Dave needs, and the servant my family, friends, clients and coworkers need. But I also hope to live with enough humility to be dependent only on my Heavenly Father so that He will receive the glory for every good thing I accomplish.

Thanks to all my precious family and friends who have taught me so much about living life this way. Here's to many years of learning this game together. I love you all!