Happy Mother's Day

Mother's Day is such a special day for me. I remember two years ago when I was 3 days away from giving birth to Hope - it was my first mother's day. We came home from church and I took a nap on the couch before we headed to Dave's sister's for lunch. It was the greatest feeling of peace I have ever felt. I was celebrating the fact that my greatest dream was about to be fulfilled.

This Mother's Day was also special (not quite as peaceful though). Hope is about to turn two and with that milestone comes a new level of interaction and conversation. Today we played with dress up clothes all day long. High heels and necklaces, tutus and tiaras. . .I was in heaven with my little girl.

And this morning in church I had a sweet moment with the Lord regarding the babies that I cannot hold on Mother's Day. We sang the song "Blessed Be Your Name" by Matt Redman. You may have read my post a while back about this song. It just happens to come on the radio every time I have a miscarriage. With each of my three miscarriages I've heard this song which is not usually topping the charts. This last time was no exception. So as we sang today on Mother's Day, "You give and take away, you give and take away. My heart will choose to say, Lord blessed be Your name," I lost it. I began to weep and couldn't stop. My heart grieved for those four little souls that I will not know here on this earth. I'm not one to create a memorial to the babies I have lost in the womb but I felt it appropriate to grieve again as their mother this morning. It felt wonderfully sweet to do so.

Those moments made me think long and hard today about mothers that are not yet. . . women who long to be mothers who are waiting on the Lord's timing. My heart hurt for each one who has this longing unfulfilled. I believe that the Lord knows and understands that longing more intimately than we can ever imagine. I pray that any of you in that place will have a renewed sense of hope and peace as you wait on Him. Although the waiting may seem unbearable, His timing is always perfect.

So for all the mother's out there. . .both present and future. . .Happy Mother's Day.

Love,
Jessica